Another Unrelenting Night
Yet another day, standing all alone on the porch wearing a shawl feeling cold, staring at the bleak sky, silence in the streets, listing those chanting of mantra, “OM NAMOH SHIVAY”. Heeding those fireflies cherishing the moment. I stayed there speculating about life again strewn reminiscing about my past, of course, the dreadful one, crying out loud wishing if there was someone who could listen to me but, I perceived that I had no one, I had to be unyielding, raise my head and shimmer again.
Another day I woke up looking at the gratifying day, everything was plausible again, there was a mysterious sky again sleepless standing in the same position thinking, days passed and the moment I never wanted to arrive, befell.
I, an exuberant extrovert who started persisting in my room didn’t want to blather with anybody just contemplating and having culpable days again. One day I pondered, “Why me”? I had many thoughts. I was like, this is it! I have no liberty to exist, I thought of pulling the plug of breathing and in the trice, I closed my eyes, mustered myself, and inhaled the inspiration while listening to the mantra, “OM NAMOH SHIVAY”.
My happy moments blazed that day. The gracious smile of my parents and how people laughed around me whenever I did something frivolous. That time, I stepped back and pondered about what I did! That I was in disgrace for nothing, though, became a patsy to those unremitting and perpetual thoughts. I comprehended that time, not worrying but, grasping that I was only beating a dead horse. There was no reason to be distressed about being over and done with. That day, I decided to move along with credence and consider cherishing every jiff of life.
And realized, only I can make myself happy.
This enlightened me.
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